One Good Thing Every Day

If we want to talk about age, I’m really not that old. It’s only been a little over three decades since I have walked the Earth. I’ve yet to start a family, buy a car, or learn how to dance.

So, what is this what am I here for feeling that I am feeling? It is an intense and immense feeling of meaningless-ness. Like driftwood set afloat in the middle of an ocean.

There are many things that I don’t like that are out of my control. I can’t do anything about them.

So I thought about what I CAN do. I can do some good, some small thing – for someone, some organisation, some project – every day.

But I don’t really know where to start.



Self-Righteousness & Petitions

What good does it do, but drive those who are already alienated further away from the way, the truth and the life?



The Grass is Greener…

The Grass is Greener...

A visual journey of Yuhui’s sojourn in New Zealand.


It’s been three years. The International is on its third run. Dendi and his teammates are now international stars and Natus Vincere has become a household name well-loved (and hated, but never unknown) by millions of gamers worldwide.


They have come so far.

From a time when DotA was at 6.67c. When the Chinese were unbeatable. When teams like CityHunter and EHOME and Nirvana.Cn were the big names in the scene.

EHOME was on a rampage, taking first place in every possible major tournament, leaving nothing but despair in its wake.

1st Place TopGamer (2010)
1st Place Electronic Sports World Cup Chinese Qualifers (2010)
1st Place Electronic Sports World Cup (2010)
3rd Place World Cyber Games China (2010)
1st Place Intel Extreme Masters (2010)
1st Place National eSports Open (2010)
2nd Place Electronic Sports Thailand Championship (2010)
1st Place Road of the King (2010)
1st Place SMM Grand National Dota Tournament (2010)

The questions on everyone’s mind then were: how do we beat the Chinese teams? Is it even possible? They were just too next-level for the rest of the world.

Then came along a strange team clad in yellow and blue. Led by an Artstyle with a Dendi as second in command. Strange names, from a faraway place. Who saw what the Chinese were doing, and didn’t care, weren’t afraid to try, and didn’t believe in the word “impossible”.

In an epic and memorable game in DotA 1, Na’Vi took down a Chinese giant with a curious hero pick: Zeus (played by LightofHeaven). Noticing that the Chinese tend to calculate perfectly and escape at near death, the Zeus pick turned most engagements around and got Na’Vi an unexpected win.

I was impressed.

Here was a team that made DotA exciting once again. A team that didn’t believe in sure-win formulas, that always thought out of the box and pushed the boundaries. A team that made me believe again, that nothing is impossible in DotA.

With wins in just 15 minutes, they took home almost every title in 2011. And became the first team to take down EHOME in a major tournament and clinch the 1 million dollars prize in The International.

1st Star Ladder Star Series Season 4 $8,000
1st GosuLeague Season 5 12 / 2 $2,500
3rd ASUS Open 2012 $2,500
1st Electronic Sports World Cup 2012 $12,000
1st GosuLeague Season 4 12 / 2 $2,500
1st Star Ladder Star Series Season 3 $6,000
2nd The International 2012 $250,000
1st JoinDOTA Masters Special Edition €1,000
2nd The Premier League Masters
1st Star Ladder Star Series Season 2 $6,000
1st The Premier League Season 2 $6,000
2nd DreamHack Summer 2012 $6,000
1st Star Ladder Star Series Season 1 $6,000
1st Techlabs Cup Showmatch $3,000
1st The Premier League Season 1 $5,000
1st The Defense €6,000
2nd Dota2 Star Championship $5,000
1st Electronic Sports World Cup 2011 $12,000
1st The International 2011 $1,000,000

Today the world is watching again as the world’s best 16 gathers for The International 3. After day 2 of the group stages, Na’Vi stands at second place, behind Alliance.

group stages 2012-2013

Can they make it through the winner’s bracket undefeated? Or will they fall to the loser’s bracket and risk being eliminated? Time will tell.

But whether they win or lose, whether they take home the 1 million or leave empty handed matters not in the context of DotA history. They have came, saw, conquered, and left their mark.

They have showed us that DotA can be won in 15 minutes (or less), and that impossible is nothing.

GG Na’Vi. May the best team win.

Date a girl who reads

“Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilight series.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.” – – Rosemary Urquico



I just wanted to say hi. That I am still here. I am trying to write, but not finding the words.

Day 95: letting go

2013, #makingeverydayworthwhile

let go.
we only have two hands each -
there’s only so much we can hold.

let go.
so you can have two hands again -
to find something new to grow.