i haven’t changed that much…

… since 2009. Found this note I did three years back on Facebook, and realised I haven’t changed that much. Does this happen to people who are old. ;x

For everyone’s sake I have copied and pasted the note below. It is called ‘3s‘… enjoy.

3s

Three names I go by:
1. mehh
2. mischz
3. meowch

Three Jobs I have had in my life:
1. unemployed poet
2. writer
3. coney-dog dispenser

Three Places I Have Lived:
1. places in my mind
2. places in between the leaves of books
3. places in sg

Three Favourite Drinks:
1. tea
2. milk
3. tea + milk

Three TV shows that I watch:
1. GGTV
2.
3.

Three places I have been:
1. memory lane
2. sandman’s domain
3. earth

Three people who text me regularly:
1.
2.
3.

thank god.

Three of my favorite dishes:
1. hotate sashimi
2. ramen!
3. after eight ice-cream

Three friends I think will respond:
1.
2.
3.

Three things I am looking forward to:
1. finishing this
2. life/death
3. everything in between

Three things that you are scared of:
1. people
2. dreams
3. words

Polaroids

Please no more therapy
Mother take care of me
Piece me together with a
Needle and thread
Wrap me in eiderdown
Lace from your wedding gown
Fold me and lay me down
On your bed
Or liken me to a shoe
Blackened and spit-shone through
Kicking back home to you
Smiling back home
Singing back home to you
Laughing back home to you
Dragging back home to you

I was so wary then
The ugly American
Thinner than oxygen
Tough as a whore
I said you can lie to me
I own what’s inside of me
And nothing surprises me anymore
But forests in Germany
Kids in the Tuileries
Broken-down fortresses
In old Italy
And claiming his victory
Shrouded in mystery
He went running away with me

Back in our home New York
Walking these streets forlorn
We all in our uniforms
Black and black
Doing that slouch and jive
The artist must survive
We’ve got all we need we cried
And we don’t look back
Thinking we had it made
Poised for the hit parade
Knee deep in accolades
The conceptual pair
But ever the malcontent
He left without incident
Vanished into thin air

Now I am always amazed
Words can fill up a page
Pages fill up the days
Between him and me
But the vows that we never keep
From bedrooms to business-speak
Make me remember how cheap
Words can be
And the letters I wrote you of
Were those of the desperate stuff
Like begging for love in a suicide threat
But I am too young to die
Too old for a lullaby
Too tired for life on the ledge

But I had a dream last night
Of lovers who walked the plank
Out on the edge of time
Amidst ridicule
They laughed as they rocked and reeled
Over the mining fields
Coming to rest on this ship of fools
But he just took polaroids
Of her smile in the light
Of the dawn of the menacing sky
And before they went overboard
She turned and held up a card
And it said Valentine

-Shawn Colvin, Polaroids

 

Share Something Every Day

Now I’m sitting here in the morning and I have just read three things. Firstly, a story on patience, by a NYC cab driver, death of the local theatre actress Emma Yong, and lastly an interesting post by the Guardian where Paulo Coelho encourages readers to pirate his books.

And oddly an idea comes to me – an idealistic glimmer that the world would be better off if everyone created things and exchanged them: a song for a verse, patience for flowers, tea for a conversation.

Maybe we are all doing it subconsciously – I bake you cookies and you let me harangue you with my tedious stories and gossip; you carry my bag and I give you a shoulder rub. Little instances of simple exchanges – subtle, quaint and taken for granted.

Maybe I am making a big deal out of nothing. This could just be the way our very social human world works – in micro and macro exchanges. Although there are people who don’t believe in giving (and just taking and taking). Might I remind you that greed is one of the seven cardinal sins? Haha, just kidding. Although I must say that I do take certain things for granted myself, but I am working on it.

You may not think that you’re talented, and just a nondescript person-next-door leading a boring life. But make tomorrow a little different, or even better, one week every day a little different: appreciate what others do, and contribute to that pool of the collective human exchange. Just try it.

My day will be every day. Flowers for a kiss?

Of Movies and Men (and Women)

So lately I haven’t been blogging much. I think it’s because I’m too busy doing things, like watching movies, which is quite strange of me. Within the last month I have reached half of my annual (normal) quota.

There was Mirror, Mirror entertaining but not impressionable. Sleeping Beauty which was disappointing – after the second half the salient points of the plot simply stagnated. Then I caught Battleships, which was fun while it lasted – as most action flicks are – but too predictable to leave a pleasant aftertaste. Madam Butterfly was a strange experience – an opera in a cinema, my first! And The Raven was one of the better ones as with kingdoms by the seas. I think I missed out one but I can’t recall so it doesn’t deserve mention.

Anyway that wasn’t the point of this post. The point, at least initially, was to list out the movies I am looking forward to watching, the movies I would like to watch again, and the men and women I adore in some of these.

Movies I look forward to watching
First on the list (not by chronology of release) would definitely be The Dark Knight Rises. Typically I don’t like superhero flicks. Stuff like Captain America is fine for an afternoon visual frolic but nothing I take too seriously – once I leave the cinema the only thing I can remember is his fabulous physique (#justsaying).  But Nolan’s Batman is another thing altogether. He’s a little grim, narcissistic and off the bat. Not your typical mainstream blockbuster superhero. But if you read into the character, how normal can a billionaire who personifies himself as a mask-wearing, bat-looking vigilante be? In Arkham Asylum, the Joker welcomes him ‘home’ to ‘the place where he belongs’. It questions the concept of madness, delves into repression (fear of death, as symbolised by the bat) and sheds new light on the hero archetype. Pretty stuff to mull over.

And Christian Bale is rather suited for this. The American Psycho actor is tall, handsome and dark – in the brooding sense, the way still waters run deep and may drown you. His (and Nolan’s) interpretation of the character gives it raw energy – a little unsettling for the mainstream folks who prefer the good to always prevail – but perfect for my unsettled mind who sees the world in a multitude of grays.

The second on my list for 2012 would be Resident Evil 5: Retribution. Now my passion for the whole RE franchise is a little personal. It all started way back with The Fifth Element where Bruce Willis held a red-headed and strange looking but beautiful girl in his arms and cried. That beautiful young woman became the heroine of the RE movie franchise as Alice, with an edginess, strength and cool-headedness that is unequaled. When she stares out from the screen with those eyes steely-cold with determination, I’m spellbound.

My interest in RE doesn’t end just here. Aside from Milla Jovovich, I am also very much taken by two other characters – namely Leon Kennedy and Claire Redfield. But that’s something else for another time.

The third, fourth and fifth movie I am looking forward to are pretty predictable. Avengers, which everyone wants to catch and is fully booked for IMAX for this weekend and the next (which is fine, I can wait). Snow White and the Huntsmen, because it looks like an interesting interpretation of the fairytale (although I doubt it can equal this version by Neil Gaiman). And the Amazing Spiderman, because it looks like a new series with some potential (I hope it doesn’t disappoint).

And then there are the movies I wish to watch again
Along with the general fever of my fascination with movies is this nostalgia for previous favourites.

The entire series of Resident Evil just because I enjoy watching Alice in action, and I especially like the last one where Claire and Chris Redfield joins the fray. Watchmen because it is so mind fcking. Leon: The Professional, because it makes me cry every time, and I must have watched it at least five times. The Hours, for personal reasons – but it makes me depressed so it’s not such a good idea. And lastly (for now), Shawshank Redemption which is not a movie I have watched but would like to (read the book, was really awesome).

I need to find a movie rental store, a location and a weekend.

Before Diablo III launches.

The greatest thing you’ll ever learn…

There was a boy
A very strange enchanted boy
They say he wandered very far, very far
Over land and sea
A little shy
And sad of eye
But very wise
Was he

And then one day
A magic day he came my way
And while we spoke of many things, fools and kings
This he said to me
“The greatest thing
You’ll ever learn
Is just to love
And be loved
In return.”

365 People Project – Hiatus

It’s not often (if ever) you hear me saying this: but lately, I have been running out of time.

After a mad week I realise it is near impossible for me to keep the project going, at least for now.

I’m quite sorry, because I did really want to do this. But perhaps it would be more feasible in later years when I don’t have a full-time job and full schedule of friends and activities.

This year’s the year for living it all man! I hope you’re living it up as I am.

365 People Project – #5 Yohenry Prakasa

This next person comes from Indonesia (the first Indonesian on this project), is pursuing his masters in Mathematics, and has more questions for me than I do for him (though not featured in this post).  I asked him a total of 4 questions, and he asked me 13!! I didn’t answer every single one, but oh well! It was nice chatting!

Firstly, tell me more about you. How old are you, where do you live and what are you studying now? And then let’s take a walk down memory lane. What’s the first thing you can remember in your entire life? 
Ok.. I’m 23 years old, male, I live in Bandung City, West Java Province, Indonesia. I’m studying at the Bandung Institute of Technology for my masters in Mathematics. Last year, I’ve got my bachelor degree in Mathematics too.

Hmm, the first thing I can remember in my entire life? It’s very difficult to answer… can you give your answer to this question first?

The earliest thing I can recall in my entire life is a walk with my grandmother. 

It was a shady evening, and the setting sun streamed through the trees. She was smiling and I was running in front of her down a winding path. We were looking for little red saga seeds which were in season, so that I could make a heart-shaped card for my mother for Mother’s Day. 

There were no cars because our area was quite isolated. I remember being happy. Very blissful. I was so small. I was wearing a white frock.
Oh, I see… nice, you have beautiful memories like that…

The first thing that I can remember in my entire life, was a trip to Vietnam . It was the first time I went abroad, first time I took a plane. It was really like an adventure for me, because I went with my 3 best friends ehehehe.

What makes you happy, and sad?
Hmm.. I’m feel happy when I can do something that I think I can’t or I think too hard for me. I’m sad, when I do my best, and still don’t reach my target. What’s your dream or goal in this life? Have you reached it?

My goal is to write a book. Whether it’s a collection of poems or short stories, or a full novel. No I haven’t reached it yet, sadly! So how about you, is there a dream/goal that you want to reach in this life, and have you reached it?
My goal is to have a job which not formal (in the bank/office ). I mean, a job where I won’t have to get up in the morning, do the same things til night. Maybe, I’ll be a lecturer or work in game development. After I have enough money, I’ll go backpacking to some country.

With that our conversation ended. He continued asking me a few more questions, such as my favourite quotes and my most unforgettable experience with PMS* but that will be a story for another time!

Comments, suggestions, feedback? Let me know!