I haven’t written here for a long long while, and this is such a positive post you need to brace yourselves.
A lot of people assume that good-looking and/or attractive individuals do not have problems with loneliness. Especially one with a career. A supportive family. A circle of friends. With what appears to be a perfect life.
That is untrue.
(I assume here that I am perceived to be attractive and/or good looking by my peers. Many have told me so. If they had lied, then it’s no fault of mine that I think this way.)
Sometimes I find myself seeking company or conversation from strangers – even if I do not know them well, they seem to provide a modicum of solace. I find myself blindly trusting and liking people. Because I want to like them, and want them to like me.
I find myself trying my damn hardest to love others unconditionally. All in the hopes that perhaps I will find a true friend who genuinely cares about and understands me, in this utterly strange land that I am in.
It is stupid, and I am learning my lesson.
The world is full of self-centred, self-serving liars. And I am so naive. I have been so since I was 17… and now at double that age (and some) I am still ridiculously naive.
It’s time to wake up. There are no shortcuts in relationships.